Toyjunk-The Dolphin

I looked at the mirror. I got disappointed. My chin has tripled. I have grown  fat. I can’t wear my old clothes anymore.  My stomach seems to  be mountains with folds. In a simpler term, I am back to my norm.

Though I am back to my big self, I am not the same Arnel. I have changed my attitudes. This is what is important. I become better with age.

I like growing old. I become wiser. Everyday, I thank God for He gives me reason to live. I thank Him for the gift of life. He makes me for what I am.

People have caused me pain. I thank them. They taught me to rise from defeat.People have loved me. I thank them. They taught me continue doing good   deeds.

I am now fat   again.  I emphasize. I am different from before. I now love myself. I understand the mazes of life. I am a better person. God is with me. I live life.

It was my 3rd day in Davao. I had to go to NCC mall alone since the other delegates from SHC were to go to different venues for their session. I was not afraid to be alone in such big city. Davaoeños are said to be kind. The whole session ended smoothly. I had to go home then alone. I bought my favorite waffles then I rode a taxi. I told him the name of the hotel. Later during the ride, I noticed that we are passing a different route. I contained myself. But, I was getting nervous. My hands were shaking. I tried to wade off the ill thoughts by talking to the driver. I was testing his sincerity. He seemed nice, though I admit he looks like a cinema goon. Afterwards, I realized that we were passing a road without houses. That was it. I began shouting. I hysterically asked him where he was going to bring me. He laughed loudly. I got more nervous. I blurted that he can get all I got and just spare my life. He continuously laughed. He tried to pacify me. I was shouting. I was giving up. At the time, if he would get my life, I just prayed that my Mother and brother will be fine without me. I was crying. I was afraid. I saw movies of salvaging in my mind. I gave up. Death might be near.

    The driver explained to me the situation. He told me not to panic. He explained that he chose another route to avoid the traffic. I was pacified a little. Still, my heart beat so fast. I was still uncertain. I was just relieved when I saw the hotel. I said sorry to the taxi driver and I alighted and went to my room. I uttered prayer of thanks.

    I learned a big lesson that day.I realized that everything we do is uncertain. The only certain is God’s assurance of love and guidance. Never again I will show such confidence. I will just do the best I can to assure myself of things. Actually, if I have been friendly with the session, I am sure, I should have gotten a company. If I asked a native of the place to get me a trustworthy taxi., I should have not felt that way. If only I did not think ill of the driver, I should have not lose confidence to him. If I didn’t watch too much movies and if I didn’t let my imagination ran wild, I have never thought such bizzare scenario. Whew. So many ifs, I still don’t have control of things. That is life-UNCERTAINTY.